postpartum review - 2months

postpartum, can sometimes feel taboo. like we aren't supposed to talk about it or like we shouldn't say too much during this time because we don't want anyone to think we're depressed or have regrets. the reality is, just because i'm tired, or not having a good day (today) or don't feel like doing anything, does not necessarily mean that I am depressed. when you are the sole nurturer of your family/household, it is easy to feel overwhelmed, tired, or not wanting to do anything. 

I understand that depression is a real thing and many, many people struggle with that every day; I'm not one of them. we just have a rack of kids and I just be tired y'all. lol. we have five kids who all need and want different things. three of them are under 5 and at home with me. I be burnt out. parenting/moming isn't easy and I feel that, everyday. kids be KIDDINGGGG. 

anyyywayyy, this postpartum journey has felt like, 'Life goes on'. yes we just had a new baby, buuut we also have four other kids who have needs and wants as well. when you have so many kids, that are young of age as well, I couldn't really take that time to just sit in my postpartum. I got up and got back to it. now, I'm not saying everyone can and is able to do that or have to do that; however, FOR ME it helped/is helping me fight off ppd/A. for me, sitting around the house all day, sleeping or just watching TV made me feel sad or angry. sad and angry that my house wasn't clean. clothes weren't washed. rooms dirty. everything was unorganized. by day 2 of being home, I was back into my normal routine because I just couldn't sit there and allow for things to pile up. my husband did help but there is only so much he is able to do between working two jobs and taking care of the other littles. I work from home, so I have all day to clean and organize and entertain the three at home. life literally goes on. we had workouts and outings and things we wanted to do that required me to get up and get going. 

I know everybody is going to be like, where is your village, why don't you do this or that. y'all, this is what worked for me. besides, not everyone can or should have to take off work because I decided to have another baby. i'm not the type of person that calls on anyone when I need help. I figure it out. days are long, but enjoy them. kids are going to be kids, bad good or indifferent. I just navigate life. I pray and cry to my mom, lol
 

anything y'all want to know specifically, drop a comment. going through pp/d/a drop a comment , let me know how your're navigating. 

ok, ✌